Sorry guys that I didn’t write for the last two nights but I was too tired. Thursday night we all went out for dinner together to practise ordering the way we want to eat not the way the restaurant wants to give it to you. It was interesting. And Friday ! what can I say about Friday! Friday was to be our last full day of three or four workouts and I were looking forward to it just being over. The 6.30am session went well then the 10.15am session was an interval session and I worked my butt off literally and  was spent – sweated like I have never sweated before and when the calorie burn was counted – I was gutted! it was low and of course I went into a low. The other two girls that I have bonded with were also low as they put in the hell session too. Anyway after lunch and our class sessions we sat down on the couch waiting to our 2pm session which I thought was a medium one and fell a sleep. When Ray the trainer found out he came in and woke me up – not impressed as the last thing you want to do is full asleep before a training session! Nothing is compulsory here but it is expected that you do what’s asked, so anyway the other two in my group decided to pull out for various reasons and I had to fight myself to not do the same.What went through my mind was that Ray had turned up over the last two weeks for me and what sort of person would I be if I didn’t turn up mentally and physically for the last session with him. So then I find out its a timed run with staggered start – well that made me feel even worse! I sulked on the inside and waited until it was my turn to go, running with dead legs and from a full on sleep where I think I was dribbling !(that’s how tired I was) was not easy.

I went out slow and started to think to myself – what’s it like to cry and run – would people notice – would I be able to actually keep running, my brain was screaming – “Oh f…. it, just walk – whats he gonna do and what made it even worse was it was a new run for me and I didn’t know how far away the turn around point was. I spotted a toilet and ducked in  not realising Ray was actually driving along and watching and he timed my toilet stop (wonder if it went through his mind would I actually come out – given my mood) it was 30 seconds – very fast pee. Off I head and as I didn’t know Ray was there when I got to the fork in the road and didn’t know where to go, he was there on the corner to direct me.

I reached the turn around before I knew it and that’s when I made the decision if I have to run back now then I’m going to give it abit more than I usually do when on my own and I decided to run at the heart rate Ray is always looking for from me. I did 6.2km in 45 minutes so that’s a 9km an hour run and I was wrapped with that! I would never in my life thought I could do that so soon. Didn’t get any celebrations from the other girls but hey they are young and its their journey but a well done would been nice as I did the fastest time as well. Anyway I celebrated on the inside and the other two girls who sat out when they found out – gave me the well done!

Today we got a sleep in and our only session on a Saturday didn’t start until 8am and it was a beautiful bush walk/run. My other exercise was a walk to Mt Eliza and later this afternoon I am going for my last run with Ray.

I learnt a few things yesterday -

Don’t let a bad session effect the next

I am more capable than I know

No matter how tired I feel  I can always do more.

I felt damn good after that run! I have given Garry my husband permission to demand that I run at 6pm every evening and damn it – I will. I am also going to run to work each morning which is 5 km’s from my home.

The Weigh In

Tomorrow is the weigh in and I am very nervous now – science and math say I have to have lost weight! I did the work and I burnt the calories and I ate the right amount of food. If I was honest and not afraid to say out loud what I’m expecting then I would say 6.9kilos would be great. It would take me under the 70kilo mark. Of course I will have to accept whatever the scales say and just make my next plan . I do feel in limbo though as until that weigh in, I feel that I can’t make my next plan as it is all based on how well I have done. If it is that amount then I am going to just keep doing what I have been doing but if it’s less then I will have to dig deep and find some way of putting more exercise into my day when I get home. The three sessions although not difficult to fit in will require me to seriously priortise my day.You also get really tired and so if you are like me a “workaholic” then you lose evening hours as you have to go to bed at a reasonable time. I am use to going to bed no earlier than say 11.30 – midnight and being up again at  6am. The first week here I was in bed by 7pm and so was everyone else because  you are shattered!

Okay everyone – wish me luck for my weigh in. I am ready – I have done the best job I could have to date so whatever it is , then it just is. I will be leaving the house at lunch time tomorrow and then have a few hours wait at the airport (temptations begin!) and a long flight home then the car ride to my house so I will get home basically about 13 hours after I leave the house. AHHHH my own bed my own shower and best of all my own family . Can’t wait to hug Garry and the girls. I have been in contact with Damian and I will email out to everyone an offer just for my followers for his “Power of Food for weight loss series” in the next week so be patient those that are asking me how much and when.

Wish me luck for tomorrow

xxxx Phyllis -